Edioting Wind

My father refused to edit the novel manuscripts he wrote in the middle of his life. His vision of the author was the solitary figure scratching out words on paper, each pen stroke deliberate, final. Others could puzzle over his handwriting and type the manuscript into the computer. Others could worry over the ways his book didn’t work as well as it might. Dad made some desultory efforts to sell a couple of his ‘books’ but he genuinely seemed unconcerned when he didn’t succeed.

Years later, he would read and re-read the novels he’d written, and (according to Mom) he could not have been more pleased with what he’d accomplished. Reading his own stuff, he beamed.

As I prepare to edit the Witch of the Colonies manuscript for the bajillionith time, I think of my Dad, and though I miss him I can’t help but smile.

We should all derive such satisfaction from our hard work.

What We Learned Last Night

“Hey,” I told Paul, in my usual articulate morning way. “In my dream last night?” Paul grunted and fumbled for his glasses.
“Yeah?”
“I heard you saying I was a terrible writer.” Paul peered at me, hair crazy like a mad scientist, gray-blue eyes wide with concern.
“That’s a terrible thing to say,” he observed, voice scratchy with sleep.
“It’s okay, though,” I told him. “In my dream, I heard you say that, and sure – my feelings were hurt – but I realized I could differentiate between how you felt about my writing and how you felt about me.”
“Well,” Paul said, sounding surprised. “That’s good. Right?”
“Sure,” I nodded, “I mean… it’s great that my dream self is so much more advanced than I am.”
Paul laughed.

He thought I was kidding.

Bringing Light In

Vanity and pride are my downfall. I’ve always been more concerned about folks’ impression of me than getting an honest take on my monstrous little creations. I’m halfway through life; if I want to see my name on the spine of a bound book, I can’t indulge myself anymore.

That doesn’t stop me from feeling more than a little apprehensive about exposing this stuff to friends and acquaintances.

What if people point and laugh?

That Didn’t Take Long

I promise daily updates and not a week later I’ve made myself a liar. I don’t reckon many folks are reading this blog yet, so now might not be the worst time to go silent. But I do want my words – my promises – to mean something.

Family was here this week, which early on meant vacuuming, sweeping, and frantically scrubbing down an apartment that looked worse the more we worked and the more we looked. Finishing was a relief, and the visit itself with the folks was a delight.

Tomorrow, I’ll be back.